Struggling

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I want to reach out to her. I'm sitting here and the only options my brain will let believe are to reach out or simply end it all. I feared we couldn't last, I am so in love and it feels like I don't deserve that, even more now. So what's left, why try?

Last updated on:2026-01-06T08:25:03+05:30

Comments (11)

cringnijja
cringnijja 2 mths ago

are you alone right now, or is there someone you could sit with or message just to not be by yourself for a bit?

WildBeats945
WildBeats945 2 mths ago

alone most times. I had to move twice from family and friends and now I'm pretty isolated

robinhood
robinhood 2 mths ago

that exact corner where it felt like two options only, text them or disappear. that mix of love and shame made my brain SO loud. you’re not broken for feeling this.

WildBeats945
WildBeats945 2 mths ago

I feel broken, and ik its not just me, happens to a lot of people, doesn't change that I feel like nothing

Shiro
Shiro 2 mths ago

everyone deserves a second chance because i believe some people can truly change. my ex and i parted ways to heal on our own. idk about him but im not using anyone and just focusing on self-healing because i messed it up. i think it’d be better not to reach out cuz painful clarity is better than hopeful confusion

WildBeats945
WildBeats945 2 mths ago

I agree with clarity but not in the absence of hope. And I don't mean hope of getting back together just hope in having my value seen by someone else. Its terrible not feeling good enough

SweetXOXO129
SweetXOXO129 2 mths ago

every being deserves love. you’re not broken and you deserve it as well. don’t contact her… sometimes you both have to heal and it’s through no contact. but if it’s in gods plan for yall he’ll bring yall back together.

WildBeats945
WildBeats945 2 mths ago

I feel broken. I'm probably not the best person, but I worked so hard at being the best to her. God must not realize I'm circling the drain here, things in my side of life were bad before this, she was my light, its out now.

SweetXOXO129
SweetXOXO129 2 mths ago

@WildBeats945 I say keep working and keep bettering yourself. Trust that if she’s the one the universe will make it happen again and if not I promise it’s not meant to be. Work on finding light in other areas of life and fill your own cup. Sometimes we have to fully break to heal and be the best version of ourselves. Take it day by day and trust that the pain is all for a greater good. If you truly believe she’s the one don’t give up but rather give it time and space

WildBeats945
WildBeats945 2 mths ago

@SweetXOXO129 I like the idea of being my best version, kinda gave up on the universe solving anything for me though. The universe dropped a building on me when I was 4 and set fire to my home with me in it as a preteen. The universe and I aren't exactly on good terms.

SweetXOXO129
SweetXOXO129 2 mths ago

@WildBeats945 I’m so so sorry to hear that :( !! but there is light at the end of the tunnel. you still have tremendous value and someone is going to see that someday. there is a perfect person out there for you and I promise it gets better! you can lose hope on a situation but don’t lose hope on yourself. you’ve survived some your hardest days already…good things come to those who wait. and I promise you’ll get it someday!