It's my fault, lost the one person who meant everything to me. I feel so guilty and filled with regret.

This was my first ever relationship, my first person who was my everything, she was perfect too, in every single way, funny, beautiful, smart, amazing personality and she loved me with all her heart, she used to say that I was the one good thing in her life and the one thing that made her happy and the one person in life she actually loved.

I repayed this amazing girl loving me by fucking it up, I cause of dumb insecurity and being a stupid idiot trying to avoid 5 min of her being dissapointed or annoyed and make her happy told a dumb lie, the utterly pointless, stupid kind that I could've just not told. After that when she found out, everything changed, after that I watched her drift through my fingers and sift through them like sand. I tried to fix it but the damage was done. She left me a month after saying "Nothings changed and you did nothing wrong just I can't be in a relationship rn I need some space to work on myself and need to be alone to work on myself". I feel like such a fool for ruining this beautiful relationship, driving a girl who loved me so much, with all her heart into the other end of the spectrum and hating me. I fumbled the relationship, messed up the breakup and burnt all bridges after it. I kept trying to be better but I just couldn't stop messing up and hurting her.

I feel so guilty, so full of regret. I wish I could go back and right all my wrongs. Slap past me over the head. I hate myself so much rn.

Last updated on:2026-01-07T05:02:03+05:30