I Don't Even Know anymore
The last time she was with me I had come down with a really bad cold. I could barely get out of bed. She couldn't have cared less. All she cared about while she was here was getting weed. So we went to a dispensary nearly and hour away. On top of that she stole the one birthday card she had made me in the entire 4 years we were together. I know I don't miss her but having a person but I don't even know if I had a person for awhile. I think I miss the routine.
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when you imagine going back, do you picture feeling cared for, or just not being alone in the quiet moments
honestly I'm not even sure I got that from her looking back. I think about the good morning and good night texts that became my routine the past few years.
typo...
frm now on let her go get her own weed!
i’ve been there. sick, vulnerable, and he just… didn’t care. i realized later i wasn’t missing him, i was missing the idea of having someone. that realization stung
Look, man. You’re not missing her. You’re missing having someone. And that’s a trap. Don’t confuse loneliness for love. You already know the truth: she didn’t care when you were sick, she prioritized herself, and she stole something that mattered to you. That’s not a partner. That’s a lesson.The best thing you can do right now is walk away mentally before you even step physically away. Stop romanticizing what was routine, stop giving power to someone who never earned it, and stop trying to squeeze meaning out of a hollow experience. Focus on yourself. Build a life where the right people want to show up for you, not just pass through. One day, you’ll look back and realize that missing her was just missing the idea of being taken care of, not her. And that moment when you really see it is freedom.