I thought I was fine. I had dated before had my share of girlfriends and even loved people. But with her it was different I truly loved her and she truly loved me. That’s what makes the loss hurt so much more.
With others I always felt like I had to serve a purpose provide something do something prove myself. Love always felt conditional.
But with her? All she wanted was my time. Just to be around me. That was enough. It felt freeing fulfilling. For the first time I felt truly seen and understood. She noticed my flaws my quirks and still smiled held my face and said You’re fine. In that moment I felt loved in a way I never had before.
And then suddenly she was gone. I can’t comprehend how someone who once made me feel like the luckiest man alive could turn around and make me feel worthless.
Now I don’t open up anymore. I don’t trust that the next person won’t hurt me the same way. Sometimes I wish I had never experienced her kind of love because it made me believe I deserved happiness. And now all I want is to be alone.
Last updated on:2026-01-20T01:36:02+05:30
Comments (5)
This is what it is about, life goes on, brother, we rise in love, yet we fall hard in love,
She taught you how to love, and maybe that’s the only purpose she has in your life. Learn from her and someday, you will be able to give that kind of love to someone else. It sucks that it’s not her. But trust me, you deserve to be loved too
to me it helped to understand if he had a kind of immature attachment that could explain his behaviour. I think he is avoidant and don't have the capacity to go deeper and it wouldn't change. I wish you healing.
OP i can’t even begin to try to understand your pain. but don’t shut down. don’t give up. mourn the loss of that love and feel those feels but don’t shut the world out.
I wish you healing 🙏🏼