I've made it 50 days and I won't break no contact. I've been working on improving my life after everything. Some days are better than others but I've survived it. I will find myself again and I will be better for having survived. I've done things I'm not proud of but I know that's not what's going to define me, It's how I'm going to move forward and be a better person. I still miss what I thought were the good moments but I will never forget how she treated me at my lowest moments. I'm starting to feel indifferent and less of the rage that consumed me at the start of this. I hope y'all will be ok too.
Last updated on:2026-01-30T07:53:46+05:30
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when you say you’re starting to feel indifferent, does that feel relieving to you, or does it scare you a little because it means something really ended
it feels relieving. I spent a long time catering to her every need. the fact it is finally starting to feel like it's over and I'm coming back to being myself feels really good some days.
what you wrote sounds like someone who’s actually processing, not just “being strong.
Thank you, that means a lot. I'm not sure if this actually is processing but I'm for sure surviving this.
for me it's hard no to contact this guy
I still love him so much
hitting day 40-something and realizing the rage was fading into this quiet sadness. i wasn’t proud of how i acted either, but surviving it changed me. that indifference creeping in is real
parts of us will always miss them. parts of us will never forget.....