I cried so much today. Was in public and just had to go to the bathroom and cry. It was embarrassing, but I got to go hang out with my cousin and we watched a movie called how to be single. I'm learning to embrace that I'm single now, there are plenty of people I can look forward to meeting. I do miss my best friend— but knowing that he's feeling better and is branching out to be friends with other people is making this better. Right now he's hanging out with his friend, and I am too. There's still this feeling of deep anxiety, but I'm learning to get over it. I'm so excited to be me again after this period of grieving, and I know there's ups and downs, but I think it's good to pour myself into something new; like a show, a hobby, game, etc!! If any of you have recommendations, please let me know! for shows I really liked the walking dead, cruella, & shameless, but I'd be open to trying anything. For games, it's definitely gotta be resident evil that's my favorite!!
Thank you for reading if you've made it this far, and I wish for only the best in your experience right now. Remember, you can grow from this experience <3
Last updated on:2026-02-03T21:10:56+05:30
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I watched it too
Valorant? Your anxiety will be replaced of anger HAHAHAHAHA
sky children of lights is a very cute game with a nice community! it's for mobile PC and others, it's very relaxing and with cute aesthetic
game of thrones
I'm learning to let the grief happen...I find myself getting teary in the weirdest places, for example I was on a bus yesterday for the first time since we broke up and I used to travel by bus to see him and vice versa and just getting on the bus set me off, so what you're going through is completely natural. Wishing you all the best too. 🙏❤️
when the anxiety shows up now, is it more about missing him specifically, or the fear of being on your own after being so emotionally intertwined
i love how you’re letting the grief exist but still choosing life. that mix of anxiety and hope is so real.
this made me tear up a bit. i’ve cried in public bathrooms too, feeling ridiculous and shattered at the same time. losing your best friend and partner in one person hits DIFFERENT. but that spark of excitement you’re feeling, i remember it coming back slowly
I highly recommend Spartacus! That show has gotten me through some of the most unbearable periods in my life. Something about the strong, sexy men doing strong, manly things makes me feel strong too.
If you just want to lighten the mood, Bad Thoughts would be perfect. Dark enough to not clash too much with your inner turmoil but also very funny, so you'll get some good laughs in.
Hope that helps! We have similar tastes in shows, so I think you'll like them. 💛
Thanks so much!! I'll definitely look into these!!
oh i watched that movie after my break up too, it’s a great motivation. i hope u fell better soon!
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