The most dangerous thing is to become dependent on someone.
The addiction formed when, at first, someone gives you non-stop attention, behaves exemplary with you, understands you, you feel like the happiest person, and then, gradually, they start to mentally abuse you without you realizing it.
And when you start to realize every single thing he does to you, you're shocked, you cry and then after the shock wears off, you want him back, you miss him again and the brain wants to get what it got in the beginning, the brain wants that person to do you good, that person who abuses you.
And you end up saying "he made me feel terrible, I'll never forgive him again, then after a while you want him back so badly".
Then after a while you say "how come I still want him so badly, he just humiliated me so much", but you still can't let him go.
Then you end up explaining to him, writing novels, hoping he'll understand that you're hurt by the way he treats you, and he doesn't change anything, he doesn't care, and you struggle with your condition alone.
And the worst thing is that that person knows you're addicted to them and takes advantage of that, instead of wanting you to be well.
But at some point, he does so many things to you that make you withdraw, even if you still want him to a small extent, but I know that nothing will change and that the time has come to put yourself first and never go back.
Last updated on:2026-02-03T01:55:41+05:30
Comments (4)
when you started pulling back, was it because something specific finally broke in you, or was it just exhaustion piling up over time?
Every fight disappointed me and something inside me broke, but I still couldn't completely detach myself.The last fight was different, it put me in a state I don't think I've ever been in before, I was shocked, shaking, crying and I actually felt sorry for myself. I told myself I never wanted to see myself like that again, I blocked him everywhere, I started going to the gym and even though I still miss him, I can't forget how he made me feel. And I knew that this was the last time.
this hurt to read because i remember writing those same “novels” hoping he’d finally get it.
intense love-bombing, then the slow mental breakdown that i didn’t even clock as abuse at first. the worst part was missing the version of him that only existed at the beginning. that addiction feeling is REAL and it messes with your head so badly