Eight days into no contact and today, I'm feeling a little better. I'm sure there will still be days when I get upset, but I'm starting to realize that I didn't deserve to be discarded the way I was. I know I could be a lot of work sometimes, but I put my hands up and was accountable for all of it, and when it was his turn, he couldn't do it. He just walked away. The hardest part is that I grew to love his two boys, and now they're gone too, and at this point, that's what I'm most upset about. And I'm scared too that he'll make me out to be the villain, that I wanted to leave when I never did, but I know there's nothing I can do about that either.
Last updated on:2026-02-05T23:28:51+05:30
Comments (6)
the part about his boys really got me. do you feel like that grief is heavier than losing him right now, or does it kind of come in waves together?
It sort of comes in waves together if I'm being honest, but they were the innocent parties in all of this, and we became really close and now I'm sure they'll be wondering why I'm not around anymore, and that is so hard, and I'm so angry with him for that too, for just ending it so abruptly.
eight days is huge, even if it doesn’t feel like it.
i wasn’t just grieving him, i was grieving his kids too, and no one really talks about that part. losing people you didn’t even get to say goodbye to. i also owned my mess, apologized, tried, and when it was THEIR turn, they vanished. that kind of abandonment sticks
I'm on day 5 and I wanna unblock him, but I don't wanna cause I know it'll restart the cycle of our 10 month situationship and I deserve better, but I'm curious what he would say...
sorry but just focus on yourself and healing rn