life lately

when you think about the time you lost, what hurts more right now, missing him or missing who you could’ve been without all that waiting?

noticing the attachment part was huge for me. once i saw it, i stopped blaming myself so much and started understanding why it was so hard to let go

i realized i lost YEARS orbiting him, waiting, adjusting myself. my attachment had me choosing him over my own life and that realization hurt like hell