Why i chose a panda over my ex for emotional support

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My ex always used to say, ‘I’m not your emotional support animal.’ So, I finally took his advice!
​I realized I’d rather have 5 lbs of weighted panda on my chest than 180 lbs of dead weight on my soul. After years of doing the work, the counseling, and the self-regulation, I’m done being made to feel ashamed for having human emotions. I traded the gaslighting for some high-quality fluff and deep-pressure therapy. Meet my new ESA: He’s silent, he’s weighted, and unlike the previous occupant of this spot, he actually knows how to hold space without making it about himself.

Why i chose a panda over my ex for emotional support

Last updated on:2026-02-25T03:02:11+05:30

Comments (12)

FadingHope
FadingHope 7 days ago

when he’d say that line, did you start shrinking yourself to avoid hearing it again

noved2000
noved2000 6 days ago

I started to make myself smaller. I felt dismissed and unseen when he would say I'm not your emotional support animal. I felt like I wasn't good enough for him and that my emotions were too big. Thank you for your follow-up question.

suckslie
suckslie 1 wk ago

the moment i stopped feeling ashamed for having normal human emotions… everything shifted. not overnight, but slowly. the shame was heavier than the breakup.

noved2000
noved2000 6 days ago

I agree. there's nothing worse than when people try to. shame you for having emotions because they are not comfortable with yours or their own. I read in a book once that if somebody calls you too sensitive, tell them I'm just sensitive enough. that has really helped me to stand up to people when they try to dismiss my feelings. Thank you for sharing your story.

swipetho
swipetho 1 wk ago

the “i’m not your emotional support animal” line just punched me in the gut my ex used to say almost the exact same thing anytime i had feelings that were inconvenient for him. like me having emotions was a burden. i did YEARS of therapy too, trying to be “less needy.” turns out i wasn’t needy. i was asking the wrong person for care. trading gaslighting for a weighted panda? honestly iconic. i love this for you

noved2000
noved2000 6 days ago

Thank you for showing your story. it helps to know that I'm not alone and that my feelings are valid. it used to break my heart when my ex would say this. I agree. I think we are both asking the wrong person for care. thank you for your kind words.

BlazeFox967
BlazeFox967 1 wk ago

girl you do you, no judgment! love it!

noved2000
noved2000 1 wk ago

Thank you for the kind words and support.

PogoBun805
PogoBun805 1 wk ago

so comforting

Scarlet
Scarlet 1 wk ago

ohhh I want to do that too

noved2000
noved2000 1 wk ago

let me know if you want me to send you the website.

noved2000
noved2000 1 wk ago

That isn't me in the photo.