couldn't stop texting
once i started with one text, i couldnt stop. what i failed to see was, if he does answer and its good, then what ? i keep getting anxiety and worrying? hear from him every 3 days just to spend once e
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back to square one
a friend of mine and I have both been going through a break up.. we decided to make a playlist together to get us through work (we can listen to music), well music was obviously a trigger and i couldn
day 5
it seems to be a pattern that day 5 i feel weak and always give in and break no contact. today, i decided to take the day off from work, while kids are in school and have a "me" day. rest, let myself
day 4
well, I made it to day 4. it's been a rollercoaster. Sometimes i feel happy and at peace because there's no chaos or stress, sometimes I miss him but I think it's because i'm not used to never being a
dayyyy 3....
I can feel the weakness creeping in. Day one i felt empowered, I was so angry at him and wanted nothing to do with him. Day 2, i was less angry and more hurt but I was ok. Today is day 3 and im starti
day 2
day 2 and im feeling ok. i just have to remember what i dont miss. i dont miss the worrying, the anxiety, the feeling of being annoying or unwanted. the fear of getting angry replies or blaming everyt
starting over, day 1
even though its incredibly hard not to reach out, unblock his social media and check, unblock the hoes hes been staying with, i know it will be alot harder and only hurt me more if i do. im one day in
progress
so its been getting worst and worst. being in love with a homeless drug addict is probably harder then being one. i gave this idiot my last 50$ with him knowing it was for groceries (single mom of 2 k
shouldve known
theres always been a stereotype about homeless drug addicts being liars and manipulative. why would i ever believe he was any different ? for 2 years, only nice to me when he wants something, being to
i shouldve known
actions speak louder then words, he was acting distant for a long time. i told him, all he had to do was tell me he was done and i would leave him alone. every argument, he has yet to say it but the w
can't stop reaching out
oh my god. I made the mistake of reaching out yesterday and breaking no contact, now I can't stop. I feel crazy, even with no response, I keep going thinking, well, i already broke no contact, may as
starting over
ughhh, i was being so strong. i had 5 days in. this is the second time that at day 5, i cave and text him. i feel so stupid and know i look crazy and desperate to him. he won't answer. i just have to
let the nightmares begin..
Last night I had my first nightmare involving him. I had reached out and begged to meet up so we could talk and cuddle and he was so cold.. waking up this morning, I think was by far the hardest morni
a little more positive
today is feeling a little harder. since yesterday i've been trying so hard not to reach out. the good news is, I haven't and I know it will get easier. For a weekend with no kids and work, i'm pretty
feeling weak
i'm also one month in with no pot, no overtime to work. I feel like today is a bit challenging with less options to keep me busy. I'm just trying to clean and relax. It's a little harder today but I'm
helpppp
almost day 2 of no contact. i saw no activity on fb which was a huge help but he obviously found a phone cuz his friend list went wayyyyy up. i feel like a crazy stalker and knowing he was online and
Am I mean?
just for those who don't know, my heartbreak is over a homeless drug addict. ive managed 5 days no contact then slipped and started all over again. I'm at day 1 like an idiot, stalking his social medi
I feel so stupid.
from the beginning, i felt anxiety with this guy whenever we werent at the shelter. i think the happiest he made me was when i worked there because he didnt have a choice but to see me. since i left,
What was I thinking ?
If you would've asked me 2 years ago, why this guy? I would've told you he was sweet, caring, kind hearted, giving, trustworthy, respectful and funny. Slowly over those 2 years, i've watched it all sl
Lividddddd
So i gave in to no contact over and over because hes homeless and I worry. I cared about him so much. If i didn't hear from him, I panicked and didn't sleep. i tried no contact and should've stuck to
Time to say goodbye
After hanging on to every excuse not to let go, worried about his safety and sobriety, I told him today I was done. Alot of people told me he was using me for the last 2 years but I would refuse to do
on to the next
just remember, every break up feels like were dying, like were never going to be ok but eventually, we meet someone better. Every breakup is for a reason, its to leave room for someone better to come
feeling dumb
when you wasted 2 years trying to save a homeless drug addict, he tells you he wants to get sobber. you fall in love with him, he makes you feel like you were the only one there for him. you went out
time to cut contact
as hard as it may be, I've made the decision to cut contact. He's part of the vulnerable population but has the oppurtunity to come out, has had that oppurtunity for 2 years and doesn't want to take i
emotionally drained
waiting for his sobriety, being as understanding as i can when it comes to only hearing from him once every few days. everyone in his life has given up on him. when we hangout and he uses and starts n
ughhh
again, in love with a homeless drug addict. i tried the no contact but it was too hard just because i worry for his well being. when he doesnt answer for a day or 2, i panick and he gets mad. but when
the shame
ohhhh i was doing soooo good. 5 days no contact then everything went wrong. for the first time in a long time, i didnt work or have kids for 4 days. Usually i work 7 days a week AND have the kids as I
first weekend fail
was feeling soooo strong. had 5 days of no contact. for the first weekend I had no work (no overtime available) and no kids. i havent had a weekend like that in foreverrrrrr. no only did i reach out a
5 day break of no contact
i gave in and feel horrible. when i woke up and didnt have clear state of mind. please remember he is a homeless drug addict which makes it so much harder. i message him this morning asking for sign o