from the beginning, i felt anxiety with this guy whenever we werent at the shelter. i think the happiest he made me was when i worked there because he didnt have a choice but to see me. since i left, hes made it soooo clear and i was chasing something that was never there. it was like he could see how bad he treated me until i gave up, right down to being with other people. probably laughing at how pathetic i am and how hes such a god and always gets what he wants. i feel so stupid. it was a blessing because i left a very hard job for him that left me with PTSD, i just wish i wouldve given up sooner. i was never what he wanted. i always chased him after every fight and everytime he was with me, he was high as a kite, barely staying awake. if i made him happy, it wouldnt have been that way. I deserve to live in peace just like he is.
Last updated on:2025-09-12T14:53:02+05:30
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i was the same chasing someone who was half here leaving that mess was brave you deserved someone awake and present not someone who made you shrink.
i quit that job for him came home with ptsd, watched him float around with other people while i was falling apart, pissed me off and made me feel so small.