I’m a 22-year-old woman who asked my 24-year-old ex for a break, and he told me he’d wait for me, giving me that whole “you’re my everything” speech. I had this gut-wrenching feeling, and now it’s been almost two weeks without talking. When I visited his apartment, I found a woman’s belongings scattered everywhere. I broke down on the floor in tears, and when he came in, he said, “You caused this.” He tried to comfort me and cried alongside me, but then he said I never showed him affection, even though he understood why it was difficult for me. I discovered a beauty blender in his car and saw other women’s names on his phone. I just didn’t feel comfortable being intimate with him, which is why I asked for a break.
As I cried, he watched, and it felt like a part of me died on his floor that night, yet somehow I was the one at fault. He said, “I hope one day you can forgive me because I don’t want to lose you.” In response, I threw his ring at him, and it was crazy that he still wore his through all of this. I told him I wouldn’t lose respect for myself by being with a man who treated me this way. Now he’s chasing after lust, while I’m still stuck in this nightmare.
The relationship needed to end; he was insecure, constantly checking my social media, and he made me feel so small. He would disrespect me and then brush it off by saying he was just joking or that he never thinks before he speaks. I’m independent, a good, honest woman, and I know how I deserve to be treated. He told me I never deserved him and that I’d always be the one who got away. I messed up, really badly. When I tried to express my feelings, all I could say was that he was the one who messed up, and he’ll never find anyone like me among the women he’s pursuing.
I’ll heal one day and mend what he broke, but he will never forget the tears I shed over him tonight. God tried to show me multiple times why I needed to let him go, yet I stayed because I wanted him to change. Why do I feel like I’ve lost? Why can’t I stop crying? Why does it hurt so much? I can hardly breathe.
Last updated on:2024-11-04T17:21:08+05:30
Comments (6)
You're a warrior.
You're fighting through this, one day at a time.
You're a queen. Don't let him dim your light.
Breaks always seem to lead to breakups.
This relationship seems like it’s causing more harm than good. I don’t mean to be blunt, but try focusing on moving forward instead of dwelling on him.
You've done an amazing job. Be proud of understanding your worth and the respect you deserve. In time (and I know it may take a while), you'll feel so glad for the strength you showed to this weak man.
Thank you so much your response truly means a lot to me.