Last night I was googling how a single girl moves outta state and found a ton of solid advice. One of them was to declutter. Like really declutter. Sell or get rid of most of it. So today I started. Took down all that random stuff I had on my wall above my bed and swapped it for one new thing. It’s way cozier now honestly.
Next month I’m just focused on getting rid of everything. Not giving any guy my time. No distractions.
It’s crazy to keep surrounding myself with people who hurt me. My family’s toxic they’ve taken everything from me even my bank account and that time I was so close to buying my own house. They want me to be like them with nothing. They know I’m too empathetic but I finally found my voice with them. Not gonna let myself be gaslit or manipulated anymore. I love them but to have a relationship I gotta be far away from them.
I found a job I actually like and I’m gonna keep doing it somewhere else. Hate that it took so much heartbreak to get me to leave a place I thought was my safe space. I found a family that made me feel like I belonged and I fell for someone I wasn’t supposed to fall for. Obviously the boss’s son. I became the healthiest version of me then he broke me. I’m getting depressed again. I just need to leave.
I need to take the lessons I’ve learned and use them to become an even better, healthier, stronger and happier version of myself.
I honestly don’t think I can ever connect with another guy again. The good guy messed me up. The one guy I never thought would do me dirty…how do I trust anyone after that? I know he doesn’t care and I hate that I cared so much still do. My heart literally hurts every time I look at him. And he’s happy.
Maybe my soulmate will surprise me in the future but I thought he was it. I’m not getting my hopes up again. I’m done expecting people to be like me. Loyalty’s rare whether it’s in relationships friendships or family.
Even though I’m hurting every day and night I’m focusing on the beautiful future I’m building for myself.
I’ll be okay even if it’s just me.
Last updated on:2025-01-23T15:33:17+05:30
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You're capable of amazing things.
Building a life for yourself is empowering.Keep going
You got this!
Leaving that toxic environment is the best decision.
that decluttering hits different. Feels cathartic though.
I was engaged had a house the whole dream. Now I’m single been that way for over a year. Some days are tough some are amazing. But remember healing isn’t a straight line it’s up and down like waves. Just focus on what makes you feel like you again. Take it day by day and if that feels too much go hour by hour or even minute by minute.
I can’t promise what the future looks like but stay strong and chase the things you’ve always wanted to do. If you don’t know what that is think back to when you were a kid. Back then it was easy to get lost in little things and just be creative.
Try new stuff walks movies writing whatever feels right. Maybe find a pen pal. Life’s crazy short and while we stress someone else is living their last day.
I believe in you. You’ll get through this. My inbox is always open. Sending love and light your way friend 💕