He didn't care about the pain he put in my heart when he ended things and made me choose between someone I loved and someone I saw as family

He didn't care about the pain he put in my heart when he ended things and made me choose between someone I loved and someone I saw as family. He shamed me for caring about anyone else and made his own insecurities the only thing that mattered.
He didn't care that I was barely sleeping 4-5 hours a night and staying up just to support him on video calls. It hurt him he felt like he was too much. I wasn’t supportive enough. He wouldn’t even listen to how it was draining me.
He didn’t care that I was burnt out after working over 100 days straight. He needed support his little ones wanted my time and energy I didn’t have. He didn’t wanna hear about how it was stressing me out. He just felt unsupported and that’s all that mattered.
He didn’t care that he promised to support me through my grief and trauma but then wanted someone else’s support. He didn’t care how vulnerable or abandoned that made me feel. He let me believe I was just being needy. He’d felt abandoned by me earlier and that’s all that mattered.
He didn’t care that I told him I didn’t trust him or that his pushing me to reopen was sketchy. It didn’t matter that I told him his lies were triggering past trauma for me. He found someone else who supported him made him feel good and none of my pain mattered.
He didn’t care how painful it was digging through layers of lies or how much trauma it brought up for me. It didn’t matter that when we finally got the truth I found out he’s a habitual liar. He’d confess then instantly go back to lying and gaslighting. It felt like it was less bad for him to deny it after. None of my pain mattered. I was just hurting him by exposing his lies and that was all that mattered.
So yeah none of this will ever matter to him. He’ll always find the most believable lie to justify himself make him the victim and keep him from ever having to care. It breaks my heart that I gave so much to a man who doesn't even see how little I matter to him or how badly he broke me.

Last updated on:2025-03-03T14:06:22+05:30