well 50 days since the last time I saw her. coming up on 4months since she left. I still think about her and miss her. the nites r the worst most times. trying to mive on and just let it go and for the most part I have. im not teasing myself thinking she is gunna come back or praying that she does. I still pray for her and I hope she finds what she's looking for. I guess im just lonely and sad at this point. I miss having my person. I miss cuddles. I miss talking about our days. I miss the intimate moments. I just dont know what to do at this point.
Last updated on:2025-07-08T04:52:02+05:30
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The way you’re protecting your younger self now? That’s growth that’s healing that’s beautiful.
You’re not just surviving you’re evolving. That kind of self-awareness is rare.
This is the kind of energy that fuels comebacks.
It’s giving warrior energy. Your mindset is on a whole different level love it.
Dang this hit deep. The fire in your words is something else. Keep standing tall.
I feel it man. And why coz I am going through it currently. But trust me you have to stop!/leave any hope for her coming back. Anyways if she comes back would it compensate this pain n sleepless nights? No I don't think so as if they care the should have shown some sign or actually come back realizing things. So take a strong step that she won't come and if she come she may hurt you again.
This gave me chills. That strength? Unmatched. You’re turning pain into power respec
I dont really have much of a choice honestly. its just my option at this point. what else can I do? sit around pretending she's gunna show up and realize she doesnt wanna be polyamorous anymore? that she suddenly found god and wants to grow together? Just fooling myself. so gotta pick myself up and keep going. not ready to give up on my dream yet so im back working on the homestead