So i had to meet my ex at school today it was sad and painful to say but either way i did my best not to relapse. Tomorrow's my birthday and he chatted earlier in the morning and i just saw it tbh it's tempting to reply but im not gonna back down. I know to myself things cant be fixed anymore and that it is better to focus on myself. 1 day and 11 hours of no contact but im still scared and stuck on what ifs but deep down im determined to fix myself from this situation.
Last updated on:2026-02-07T05:48:03+05:30
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what part feels scarier right now, the birthday coming up or the fear that not replying closes the door forever?
Rn its the fear of not replying, but even if i did reply nothing's gonna change ill just keep on clinging to hope to fix something that's beyond fixing so i choose to not respond even if it closes forever.
my ex ruined my birthday last year with his empty promises , exactly a year later and my heart calls for him on my birthday. things will get better slowly but surely
i’m proud of you for not replying. i know how tempting that is, especially before your birthday.
i had to see my ex right when i was doing “okay” too. birthdays made it worse. i remember counting hours of no contact like it was oxygen. the what ifs were LOUD
Very loud. Struggling right now tbh but i need to be strong