I got arrested for a dui a couple weeks ago but the charges got dropped but its a long story. The only thing im guilty of though is being a bad driver. it just reminds me of my ex he would freak me out about driving but honestly his fears were right. not healthy though but when driving you definitely need to be cautious. I have a habit of not paying attention and dissasociating which is what happened that night. I have vertigo and my symptoms made the officer think I wasnt sober. but it makes me miss my ex still driving was a big thing with him and I. obviously it wasn't healthy. I miss him so much though. I don't know what's going to happen but I wish I still had him sometimes...I always drove better when he was in the car still had moments and sometimes id drive like crap because he made me so nervous but still sometimes having him around was good. I miss him but he absolutely hates me...he told me. I wish he didn't because I feel like I have every reason to but I really don't hate him. I still love him.
Last updated on:2026-06-21T21:42:11+05:30
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the part that stood out to me is that you're missing him and remembering the comfort he brought, but you're also aware some of those dynamics weren't healthy.
i used to miss my ex the most during random everyday things, not the big moments. a song, a grocery store aisle, a drive home. it's wild how grief attaches itself to ordinary stuff.
keep your head up and keep moving forward
Anyone who tells you they hate you is not worthy of your love. You’re working so hard, keep going!!!
I want him back but he doesn't want me back