Why did i take him back after cheating?

My ex boyfriend and I were together for almost 5 years from when I was 16 to 21. We broke up in September 2024 and he came back in January 2025. He told me he had slept with another woman while we were apart because he was lonely. I decided to give us another chance because I believed we could make it work.
A few months after getting back together he admitted that he had been wanting to cheat for a while because he was depressed had urges toward other women and was struggling with porn addiction. Hearing that completely broke me. We broke up for a few days then he reached out again and I took him back because I kept telling myself at least nothing physical had happened while we were together.
After that things were never the same. He started calling me dramatic and saying I was doing too much whenever I asked for reassurance. At one point he even told me to “shut the f up” if I wasn’t going to do anything about it.
It’s been two weeks since we finally broke up and I feel like I’m falling apart. I keep questioning myself wondering if I was too much or if I should’ve stayed quiet. I keep thinking maybe he’ll change for someone else maybe I ruined something that could’ve worked.
I just need to know if anyone else has been through something similar and how you got through it.

Last updated on:2026-07-02T21:45:11+05:30