I never imagined I'd be in this position. I honestly thought something like this could never happen to me.
My ex blocked me on everything without any warning. Two months later he was engaged. Just like that.
I feel like I spent some of the best years of my life loving him. We were together from the time I was 18 and I truly believed he was the person I was going to spend my life with.
Everything reminds me of him. Every time I open Snapchat old memories pop up. My gallery is full of photos drawings and little reminders of the life we shared. I even had a vision board filled with plans for our future and I had to delete every single part of it.
The hardest part is how easily it seems like he moved on. It feels like I meant nothing to him and I can't stop wondering if it was all my fault.
I catch myself praying that his engagement doesn't work out and then I feel guilty for even thinking that. I don't want to be that person but I'm just so hurt.
I honestly thought I'd recover faster but I really believed he was the love of my life. Some days I keep blocking and unblocking him because all I want to do is call him even though I know it would only make everything worse.
I cried through my entire workout today. I haven't been able to eat. It feels like I'm trapped in a nightmare that I can't wake up from. Sometimes I wish I'd never met him. Other times I wish he'd gotten the best version of me instead.
Seeing the post he made about his fiancée completely broke me. The way he wrote about her was everything I always wanted to hear. My heart feels shattered into a thousand pieces.
Deep down I know the only way I'll move forward is by stopping myself from looking at their engagement photos. But I still find myself hoping it won't work out even though I know I need to let go. I hate that my mind keeps going there. Right now I just wish none of this had ever happened.
Last updated on:2026-07-07T17:49:12+05:30
Comments (4)
You went "all in" in your relationship just like me and many of us. 🥺
The fact that he went from blocking you to being engaged in just two months means he was likely already emotionally checking out or talking to her while you were still together. You didn't waste your best years, you just gave your all to someone who wasn't actually present. Please delete the Snapchat and those life boards right now, because you're essentially picking at a wound that's trying to scab over.
Girl... so now you know he was definitely not the one. Fuck him and fuck that. You have the best years of your life coming up. Be what you wanna become and be with who cherish you like crazy. Trust me... not being chosen is a hart pill to swallow although.. once you get over all the self blame phase, you will understand he was not that great in the first place, cause we always ignore things when we are in love.
I expirienced something similar to this ,Believe me it's gonna get better , But never ever try to run away from your feelings sit with your feelings cry shout at sky if you want to, but never run away from all the feelings you feel , It doesn't matter if his engagement fails or not because , Your self respect wouldn't let him in your life again after everything he has done to you