Hello! Trigger Warning: Suicidal Thoughts
I feel one of the main reasons I have trouble keeping no contact was last year it was more about attachment and missing him. And now its more a mixture of missing him and wanting answers.
After he ghosted me December of 2025 I reached out to a girl he talked to while we were together.
For context: in october of that year he ghosted me once again the girls boyfriend reached out and asked if I should be worried about them hanging out at night at the park or going to eat. I told him its not my place to say but he said that his girlfriend said that my ex was moving soon. I got so heartbroken that I broke 3 weeks of no contact and called him crying telling him I cant believe that he was moving that I was going to miss him. he said i should come over that night so i did and he ended up saying after a 3 hour phone call and a trip to his house that he wasn't actually moving and he just told her that so he didnt have to see her anymore. I let it go until he went no contact in december and then in janaury I reached out to her she denied it at first but then admitted that they had sex and how he would call her beautiful. it was hard for me to swallow but I continued to ask for more i got so upset one night I asked for both his friend and him to call me so we can all understand. his friend agreed and called and talked about how he was bragging about doing this and how he was just horny. So when I broke no contact in may I confronted him and he said no she assulted me I never wanted to do that with her. Which brought me a lot of confusion considering both the girl confessed and his friend talked about how much he bragged about it. During the breakup his friend started talking to me more and we would go on call for hours talking about random things he helped me a lot during the breakup and we started to get romantic feelings .so when I broke no contact in may when he unblocked me and liked a comment I made 2 months ago I told him the truth he was furious and called me a hypersexual, a whore, slut told me that if he was me he would just go kill himself. He told me not to contact him and that he was going to kill himself in got worried and stupidly showed up to his house to check on him. It was mostly screaming and yelling at each other but by the end we were crying in each other's arms saying how much we loved each other he kept saying he would have taken me back if I didnt "fuck up" and it made me feel terrible. we cried and held each other for 2 hours in the car before I had to go. it stuck with me and that night I called him through my sisters phone he asked to see me again and i said i couldnt. but then after that we would meet up sometimes he was nice and other times it was like his personality would switch. For example:
I asked if he wanted to go to a dinner date he said he would love to I took a shower and took some time getting ready and then I hear a text message I read it to him saying fuck you you slut you ruined everything. He then told me that his friend the friend i was talking to would talk shit about me and it made me wonder if my ex was this innocent guy but had people tell him things that made him dislike me. I asked his friend and he said that he asked my ex himself and he said oh no it wasn't your fault we broke up it was all mine.
eventually he blocked me and told me he hated me and he wish I killed myself after I told his brother he was suicidal and was going to kill himself after 27 days when he was able to get the gun. I know he told me not to tell anyone but it was a lot to carry by myself and I know his brother could help more than I could. He said wow thank you for making everything more complicated for everyone I wasn't actually going to do it you know "im guessing that means shooting himself". He then texted my sister saying everything i did and threatened to tell my parents he then said love you sorry we were this unlucky then blocked me. so I guess a lot of things are in my head.
P.S. sorry for the long message lol
Last updated on:2026-07-08T14:55:11+05:30
Comments (4)
i got stuck chasing answers too, every new version of the story just left me more confused than before. the way he could hold you crying one day and call you those names the next would have messed with my head too.
thinking if i could just get ONE honest answer i'd finally be able to let go.
i keep coming back to one thing. when he said his friend poisoned him against you, did he ever actually take responsibility for the things HE said and did to you, or did it always end up being someone else's fault?
Hi, mostly it was always someone's fault he said that everyone betrayed him including his friend and that girl and he didnt deserve this . I did call him out for his behavior how he would push me away when we were together and he just said yeah im sorry but what you did was worse.