it's 03h24 AM and my pillow is wet in tears, I've been staying with this man since 2024. I was groomed by him I was only 17 i am 21 now he is 12 years older than me , he successfully made my life about him , I don't have friends anymore im a bit distant from my family. He is not there for me in anyway I try my best to be seen but no effort is enough. I have a terrible headache cause he just hit me his phone was ringing I answered it was a girl I slapped him asked who that was he then hit me on the head. I hate myself because I can't leave i feel disgusted by my own self.
Last updated on:2026-07-14T08:01:37+05:30
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you cant hate yourself.
i remember thinking i had to be "ready" before i could leave. i never was
this is harder than it seems, people think im here because I chose to I feel like I don't know how to leave
i was with someone who made my whole world so small that i forgot who i was without him. the first time he hit me, i still found a way to blame myself too. you're not disgusting for struggling to leave, i've been there.
how did you deal with the whole situation?
i'm stuck on the part where he hit you. are you somewhere safe right now, or are you still in the same place as him?
I am safe now, been for hours. thank you.