Hi D. I wanted to tell you some of the things that happened when I broke up with dn. Not to make him out to be the bad guy but in hopes that it will help me move on. I dont know what he has told you already. I dont want to cause any drama by sharing this but I have told Dn. countless times what has happened on my end and he wont aknowledge it so I just wanted to tell my story as a way of letting this go and moving on because I know Dn is not an option to talk to he has made it very clear he doesn't want me in his life. Dn and I fought a lot even before we moved in together. I feel he was very mean. I have severe depression, anxiety and PTSD and have been struggling with Postpartum Depression which is what broke my child's father and I up as well but that is another story. I was struggling a lot without my meds. One day we fought so much I had a panic attack on my way to work and had to call out. I apologized to my boss and my boss assaulted me that day and I was afraid to tell Dn because I knew how against quitting jobs he was and I had got fired from another job just a month prior. Dn cared a lot about money and he had been telling me i owed him a lot. I had been driving him to and from work and he was paying for the gas he kept telling me i owed him all of the gas money he was paying even though i was taking him to work. I was very overwhelmed and what happened at work just topped it off. I had already been thinking about breaking up and I decided I was going to that night. When i did he helped me pack my things and handed me all of my pills to pack. I didnt have a plan or anything but was in crisis so i told Dan i was putting them in my car. Grabbed a can of white claw he had for his 21st birthday and took them all with the alcohol. I dont know why i came back to the apartment after i didnt want to be alone and wanted my dog. He had asked me if i took anything i said no i think at first the details are fuzzy Y but then i said i did. He called 911 and i blacked out. I was in a coma is all my family told me it was for 8 days and i flatlined and doctors had to do cpr. Dn i dont think he will ever forgive me but he did save my life. God gave me a revelation i do not think i was going to heaven and the dream i had in a coma was so terrifying i never want to experience that ever again. I hurt so many people through my actions and my daughter almost lost her mom and i could have never seen her again. I couldn't drive after and had no where to go either so my parents never let me see Dn again after and now after how hes acting i would not feel comfortable to. I could not be more devastated and heartbroken knowing what i put Dn through and I sincerely apologize to you and your family. I want to use this second chance God gave me to be a better mom to my 2 year old girl Charlotte. Shes in iowa im planning to move there but not sure when id secure housing and a job. Earliest is october buT im thinking latest next summer. Anyway so sorry for the spams. I am truly sorry for what I did to your brother and your family. I just sent this message to move on from all that happened hopefully you are safe to talk to. I sent you so many messages i dont even know if you will read them but if you do thank you in advance! Dn saved my life and i want to help him too as i know hes struggling but he told me he does not want me to. So i hope that you and your family will help him and you guys seem great im sure you will. Ive been praying for Dn and your family and will never forget this time. I am truly sorry and hope Dn can be happy one day. Thanks again.Anyway just seeing you opened these is good enough for me. You dont have to respond if you dont want to i just thought telling my story to someone that knows him would help me let this go. I hope this doesn't make you super mad and maybe i shouldn't of shared i am sorry if this upsets you. I hope it was ok to share but if not im sorry you definitely dont need to speak to me. Hope this doesn't make you mad. Thanks either way have a good day.
names are edited out i sent him this hours ago he's been on but wont open the message and he removed me as a follower too. this family hates me. i was hoping id get justice and validation but thats not going to happen. im really sad now.
Last updated on:2026-07-14T06:25:55+05:30
Comments (4)
his family was always more likely to protect him than give me the validation i wanted. i had to stop looking for justice from people who were never really my people.
were you hoping his brother would actually respond, or did you mostly need someone connected to him to finally hear what happened?
I just wanted him to open the message and feel connection and that someone might actually know what happened. I kept the abuse out of it i didn't want to hurt him with that
i poured my heart out to my ex's family too because i thought if someone finally heard MY side, maybe i'd stop feeling so invisible. when he ignored me, it felt like i was losing the relationship all over again.