i had a dream about him. it took everything out of me to understand that it wasn’t real. he admitted to everything in my dream and gave me real answers as to why he left and why he chose her over me.
and it felt so real. in his room, i was crying and begging him to tell me why, and this time he did. his step mom peeked in the room and smiled when she realized he was growing as a person. everything i wanted to know was answered.
the worst part is, he told me he would have chosen me. but in this reality he chose her with 110% certainty.
why did this happen? why can’t i just love someone and they love me back? and why do i still love him, even though i know somewhere deep down that what he did was wrong?
Last updated on:2026-08-03T06:07:18+05:30
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i've had dreams where my ex finally explained everything too, then i woke up and had to lose them all over again. waking up was honestly worse than the dream
waking up will forever be something i wish i could stop from happening.
i kept chasing the "why" for so long, but i never got the answers i wanted. what finally helped me was accepting that the way they treated me already said more than any explanation ever could.
i am trying to understand this now,but it’s hard to accept that someone you loved could have ever treated any less than great.
you said he would've chosen you in the dream. do you think your heart is still waiting for the version of him that never really existed?
i do. undeniably i really believe that my heart is waiting for him to change and become what i wished for.