its the worst thing to say outloud, and to admit. and I HATE that it took him leaving for me to realise the behaviour. I hate that I treated him like that, I hate that I hurt him so bad. I hate that I can't control my anger and I have been torturing myself with the thought of him cowering in fear when I yelled at him. why did I do that. why did I do that. him leaving was so valid.
we were together 3 years, and he is so sweet and loving, and I still somehow hope that one day after I've put in the work to change he comes back to me, I want nothing more than to tell him I was wrong, apologise and be better. I will be better no matter what but no one leaves and abusive relationship just to go back to it.
I ruined everything and lost the love of my life and I'll never love again, unless it's him I love
Last updated on:2026-08-29T14:42:16+05:30
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I was bitter in my previous relationship and I had anger issues and I think that kept my partner away and I truly loved him so much however much he wronged me too he kept on complaining about my anger issues right now I lost him but I am working on myself to be better and probably be more kind and Understanding for the people in my life .. it took pain to realize I wasn’t perfect
i'd put all that energy into becoming safe, whether he ever comes back or not.
i feel how badly you want him back, but can you imagine doing the work even if he never comes back, simply because you never want to make someone you love feel afraid of you again?
i've been there with the shame after hurting someone i loved. that moment where you finally see your own behaviour clearly can absolutely wreck you, but i had to learn that hating myself wasn't the same thing as changing.