i haven’t cried about him in a long time but today got me and i needed to write:
Mindless scrolling lead me to a video of you. I clicked on your churches page to see you got baptized today. You wore the bracelet i made you during it. A life event that you’ve wanted for so long. A part of who you are as a person. And for some reason you still wore it. The post you made was captioned “made new”. But the new you still hold on to that bracelet after all this time. Did you even think about the fact that you were wearing it? When we were together you said you never take it off. That hasn’t changed and i lose my mind wondering why. We both have changed. Both growth apart from each other and live new lives completely separate from what once was. I still have habits and phrases that i picked up from you. But I have no idea how much of me still lives on in you. You seem to be unbothered existing alone. And i often get so busy i forget how much you used to be intertwined in my life. Yet i still sleep with our stuffed animal and you still can’t take off that bracelet.
Last updated on:2026-08-31T20:51:12+05:30
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where one random detail makes an old life feel close again. i had to remind myself that i could let the memory mean something without needing to know what it meant to them.
this hurt to read because i can feel how much the bracelet has your mind spinning. do you think part of you is hoping it means he still carries a piece of you?
seeing my ex keep one tiny thing i gave him, and suddenly every feeling i thought was gone came rushing back.