As time goes by, I feel depressed. He thinks I'm bad. Its over. I can't bare the pain of being the bad person in my ex's mind. My truth isn't enough.
I know that a right, secure person wouldn't hurt me that much. I know thats not all my fault like he said. I don't deserve this, thats why I don't go back... but its hard.
I know that i shouldn't wait, but why doesn't he feel the guilt... Did I mean nothing? I want to feel justified... I feel so deeply and that's why Im so scared and worried
Last updated on:2026-09-28T20:10:47+05:30
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i had to stop chasing that feeling of being justified, because every time i tried to prove my side in my head, i ended up right back in the pain. i started reminding myself that his version of me could exist without becoming my truth.
i feel like I can't accept it right now... the pain is already unbeatable
you think you want him to feel guilty because you still love him, or because you need his guilt to prove that you really were hurt?
I still think about him, but I know he's not the one. I'm just really hurt and I cant believe how he could do this
i needed my ex to see me as a good person before i could finally breathe again. that part hurt like hell because i knew my truth, but i still wanted him to understand it too
that exactly, it's really painful
im in the same boat as you. sometimes you can try to explain and convince your side and your opinion, but all they will listen to is their own thoughts. I hate the thought of him thinking im a bad person too, but we know in our minds that we arent! and at the end of the day, thats what matters.
thats trueee. But right now its doesn't feel enough...
@didou just remember that this is what hes choosing and what he will continue to choose if you reach out again.