time goes so fast and so slow at the same time when the person you loved most isn't with you anymore. it's been 8 full months of highs and lows. I'm much better now in most ways. Although he's still here with me in the back of my mind but not actively existing in my every being. but the worst part is i think i lost my past self a bit, I'm terrified of relationships or marriages like crazy now. it feels like i can't imagine being with someone for the rest of my life. the funny thing is i don't think i can even be with him if it ever comes to that cause of how terrified I'm in those things. but hope things will turn around again. someday!?
Last updated on:2026-10-05T22:08:42+05:30
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after my breakup, i missed this older version of me who could actually get excited about love without immediately thinking about how badly it could hurt. eight months later, that fear was still there, just quieter.
are you post 8 months of breakup like me? yeah the fear still lives under a heavy blanket doesn't it
i stopped trying to picture marriage or forever for a while. i just let myself meet people, have conversations, and see what felt okay without making myself decide whether i could love someone for the rest of my life.
it's just I'm 25 and i feel like it's about time i meet someone who i choose to spend the rest of my life with. but i think i should try that.
you think you’re scared of relationships themselves now, or more scared of becoming that version of yourself again?
both can be true. I'm scared of relationships cause i feel like he will still be engraved in me in some way or I'm scared of it because it took a lot from me and I'm afraid it will again, or I'm affraid that i will never love someone as deeply as I've loved him, enough to marry them specially, you know
I totally get it when we broke up which was almost 2 months ago I couldn't imagine my self with anyone but him then I couldn't imagine being with him or anyone and I'm still scared to be in a relationship but I know that there is a plan for me and I will get over it because no one is meant to be single forever everyone has a person and everyone has liws and highs and I kniw you will get through it and find the person for you I love you girl you will get through it I promise just stay strong
thank you dear, one can only hope.