It’s been two weeks and I’m physically shaking sm today and am desperate to break no contact. I initiated no contact 2 weeks ago after my boyfriend broke up with me like a week before and I’m trying to focus on myself. I’ve been taking antidepressants ever since no contact more specifically sertraline and it’s actually working really well surprisingly. My depression has lowered quite significantly since but the main problem lies in my tarot readings. Whenever I fall into depression or severe anxiety, feeling as if I have no control I turn to witchcraft and for a good few days my tarot readings have been positive. My friend gave me my first tarot reading about self improvement and I was going in a really good direction and ever since then I have been rlly happy about that and doing tarot readings for myself but the problem lies with the fact I’ve been doing them on my ex too. For a few days I was getting pretty good tarot readings about my ex but today they have been honestly really bad and I have been repeatedly doing tarot readings untill they would come out good but I had no luck and honestly I’m so close to breaking no contact. I feel so awful not having talked to him for 2 weeks and I want to actually see if I can have a good secure conversation about how we are both doing but I know I need to hold back.
Last updated on:2026-10-15T17:48:11+05:30
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that physical shaking when you are fighting the urge to text them is absolute TORTURE. i spent hours pulling cards over and over until my deck was basically ruined just because i needed the cards to tell me he was coming back, and it always left me feeling ten times more hollow
during those frantic moments was locking my tarot cards away in a high closet and calling a friend or holding an ice cube in my bare hand until the physical panic started to quiet down.
you able to put the deck out of sight right now so you can give your nervous system a tiny break from chasing answers
you don’t have to reach out to him to get through this feeling. you can sit with it and get through it because you’re strong enough!! I got pulled a tarot after a week of no contact and it was the mirror. Learning that I need to look at myself in order to get through this period was very eye opening! I hope you’re able to because it is not worth it!