HATE MY EX SOMETIMES!!!!!!! wish I never met him!!!!!!!!!! Not proud to say this, but he was a married man going through a divorce (or so he claims, never found out the truth, was sucked in naively 1 month in, stupidly stayed believing he was going through a divorce) I HATE MYSELF AND MY BRAIN (AND MY HORMONES FOR BEING BLINDED) FOR BELIEVING THE BEST OF HIM AND NOT BEING TO GET OUT FOR A LONG TIME DUE TO HIS STUPID LIES AND MY STUPID HEART. I WISH THE WORSE FOR HIM!!! THE GUILT AND REGRET IN ME WILL STAY FOREVER. I HATE THAT I HAVE TO GO THROUGH AND BEAR THIS SHIT. I HONESTLY HATE MYSELF, HELP.
Last updated on:2026-10-20T04:55:50+05:30
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I just got out of a relationship with my ex who was married and claimed to be separated. Were together for a year, and all that time she couldn't file for divorce. After a while I got sick of being in limbo, so I broke up with her. I have so much guilt because I loved her truly. Im not proud of myself either and im only 9 days no contact. Just take it one second at a time.
i'm really concerned hearing you say you honestly hate yourself. when the guilt hits hardest, is it more about believing his lies, or feeling like you lost so much of yourself trying to make things work?
i used to replay every red flag i'd missed and call myself stupid for staying.
i can feel how much anger and regret you're carrying. i've been there, trusting someone who kept feeding me stories, then blaming MYSELF for believing them. you can hate what happened without hating yourself for having a hear
same story here. Al the promises. he had a hard time coming close and only because he was divorcing. a year and a half later.. he still lives there.. I feel so worthless.