i love him so much and he wasn’t my first love but my second, i miss him and think about him all the time and i just remember him crying when he broke up with me, he really didn’t want to and if i was more responsible and mature i could’ve had that future that he wanted. I still have faith, the day we broke up we promised to go no contact until april 7th and that we won’t talk to anyone else, that we’ll work on ourselves and when we see eachother we’ll take time to decide if we’re ready to be in a relationship again. I miss him so much and im working so hard to figure my life out so I can have that future with him, but i truly want to know if we both work on it, would there really be a chance. I’m so unsure if he just said it to me so I would hang up but I want to trust him and the promise we made I don’t even blame him but i want to rebuild something new and mature and i just miss my baby so much
Last updated on:2026-10-29T01:39:12+05:30
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i was clinging to a future deadline was shifting all that hard work toward myself instead of doing it as an entrance exam to get him back. if you change only to pass his test, you end up giving away all your power to someone who walked out the door.
are you holding onto april 7th as a real possibility, or do you feel deep down that he gave you that date just to soften the blow when he left?
a mix of both, i think he genuinely wants to see me on top of the fact i was his first love, but i also think i broke him a lot by not figuring out my future so i think it’s a real 50/50 that if we both figure our lives out and grow from the distance there could be a possibility, but i think he genuinely wants to see if i’ve improved, maybe not to get back together but i have some hope
i spent six months blaming myself for my ex leaving, convincing myself that if i just fixed my own flaws he'd come back, and taking on all that guilt while waiting for a set date on the calendar broke me down completely.
thing is he’s right though how could someone be in a relationship with someone who’s so dependent on the other, never had a job, never learned how to drive. it was this codependency that killed my relationship and future and he himself said he has issues he needs to work through too, the relationship overall was complicated but i have some faith that if we take this space and learn and grow we could have that relationship we both wanted
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