I get it I messed up wasn’t my best self

I get it I messed up wasn’t my best self. Pain really changed me into someone I wasn’t. You had every right to leave but playing with my head when all I wanted was to make things right wasn’t fair. I would’ve never dipped on you even though I felt like you kinda had the first real shot at me but I respect your decision after I made myself look crazy. I know my past pain caught up to me when I just wanted to love you. It blocked me from seeing who I really am but loving and losing you helped me find my way back. I’m really sorry I hurt you I wanted you to be the person my world revolved around the one I’d give everything for. I miss the laughs I miss the dogs catshit man the victim lol and Big Moose the cat. I miss having you by my side I miss that we were almost gonna be parents. Lyla would’ve been such a perfect name. I miss you picking at my skin for ingrown hairs I miss that love I didn’t realize was there. Yeah we both had our issues but I was ready to work through it all. I made dumb decisions and mistakes didn’t know what real love looked like cause I’d never seen it. I hurt you and regret it deeply even though I wasn’t myself and going through mania without help. My therapist says I need to forgive myself and I am but I still regret what I couldn’t say. Your love was always my end goal cause even through all the mess we made I knew love could pull us through. I’m sorry for the pain and I’m sorry I hurt you.

Last updated on:2025-03-07T15:09:55+05:30

Comments (10)

NiceNinaa
NiceNinaa 1 y ago

Sending good vibes for your healing.
You'll get there.

Melanochy
Melanochy 1 y ago

Past pain is a real blocker. Glad you're breaking through.

lizzaWon
lizzaWon 1 y ago

Love's messy tbh. But it's worth fighting for.

SuperCharge

End goal feels. That's a strong statement.

Hope2Cope
Hope2Cope 1 y ago

Regret is a heavy vibe. But you're owning it

ExoticDiva
ExoticDiva 1 y ago

Mania is no joke. Hope you're getting the help you need.

Genzgi45
Genzgi45 1 y ago

Lyla that's a cute name.
Missed opportunities hit hard.

CatLineMeow

Catshit man the victim lmao. That's kinda funny though.

topsecrat
topsecrat 1 y ago

Feel this. Pain changes people, fr.

NoluckBeb
NoluckBeb 1 y ago

Big mood. That's a whole emotional rollercoaster.