day 17 is almost gonna end and till this day I still crying daily after works and in midnights , I love sleep so much that I can't count it a day if I slept less than 8 hours , in fact , these 17 days I've never had more than 4 hours of sleep a day because of my anxiety and my thoughts " what if I fall asleep so hard that I couldn't hear the notification from him contacting me again ? I keep waking in the middle of the nights looking for a text , a word , a ghost of him . I can't do this no contact anymore , god helps me , If it was my words that hurts him I can go silent for life I wouldn't say any words in the next 50 years just for him to stay on my side , I called my mom yesterday because the delivery man arrived at her house and she asked me why has your voice changed ? sounds like you've cried , I just plame it to the flu , can you imagine an overtalker girl who wish to go silent for life just to keep her man , that's how much I loved him đź’”
Last updated on:2025-08-06T04:52:02+05:30
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you’re still holding onto the hope he’ll text. not even him, just the sound. the ping. that’s the part that’s running your life right now.
i remember lying to my mom too. said i was just tired. said it was allergies. anything but the truth. it hurts that much.
i used to sleep through earthquakes but after he left even the silence woke me. i stopped eating just in case he texted during dinner. never did.