on Christmas Day I sent my ex an email containing 2 parts, part 1 about the logistics of getting some of my stuff back and his stuff and part 2 about how sorry I am for how we broke up. it was not pretty.
he replied today to say I should drop off his stuff at his brothers and I can pick up my stuff there. the reply wasn’t unexpected but it still stung so much. especially as today would have been our 2 year anniversary.
I just want to numb the pain completely and sleep and never wake up.
I’ve also given up on god. for why would god not hear me (and I know they say it’s because he has something better for me… but after all I’ve been through, I know really think he is not there).
Last updated on:2025-12-29T23:19:02+05:30
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are you safe right now? like, do you have someone or something near you that helps you feel even a tiny bit less alone in this moment
when i felt that “i just want to sleep and not wake up” feeling, it was my body screaming for relief, not an actual wish to be gone.
anniversaries hitting right when you’re already raw is CRUEL. i remember sending an apology email and getting a flat, logistics-only reply and it shattered me. it made me feel so disposable. you’re not weak for this pain
he take back all his present for me he didn't give me nothing back he had my Money about 180€