Fighting the urge to reach out: my breakup journey

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I’m sitting with some hard truths today. I’m currently navigating the "no contact" phase, and some moments are harder than others. Today, the urge to reach out was so strong that I cried—not necessarily because he’s the right person for me, but because I’m craving a "hit" of love to soothe the depression and the heavy transitions I’m going through right now.

​I’m realizing that breaking no contact would only break my own heart. I have to trust that just because I can’t control the future doesn’t mean I should run back to a past that included chaos and verbal abuse.
​Today’s win? I brushed my teeth. Next goal? A shower. It’s small, but it’s movement. I don’t know what my life looks like yet, but I’m choosing to move toward the unknown instead of back to what hurt me. One tiny step at a time.

Did anyone else cry today? Did anyone else have to fight through depression today? did anyone else want to skip there family Easter dinner?

Fighting the urge to reach out: my breakup journey

Last updated on:2026-04-06T12:59:03+05:30

Comments (3)

KiwiLOve
KiwiLOve 3 hrs ago

this hit hard… when it got like this for me, i kept no contact like it was survival because every time i broke it i felt worse after.

starynight
starynight 6 hrs ago

crying over the urge to text him even when i KNEW he wasn’t good for me, it wasn’t about him it was that craving for comfort. brushing your teeth on days like this is HUGE, i’ve had those exact wins too

healing
healing 7 hrs ago

thank you for sharing this. I love the line that breaking no contact will only break your own heart. I’m right there with you; we’ve got this