after all this break up end of may no contact on my end again on day 8.
and I still having conversations in my head with them.
haven’t slept in 2 days. I don’t know what to do anymore.
why can’t my brain let go. they way I got treated and even 8 days ago is abuse.
why do I keep talking to them in my head and why did I even expect something on my birthday.
I can’t seem to be able to help myself feel better. I don’t know what to do anymore.
I learned my lesson I won’t reach out to them ever again.
I can’t cope with the injustice. I expected so little and got even less.
I won’t drink or take medication. I just want to feel okay I don’t even want to be happy I can cope with that. I just want to be okay.
Last updated on:2026-07-24T17:26:55+05:30
Comments (8)
i'm stuck on the birthday part. did they usually make your birthdays feel important before, or were you hoping this time would finally be different?
they always made a big deal out of my birthday. they did something. this year after the break up I’m the bad guy and not even a happy birthday.
honestly, when i was where you are i stopped asking myself why i still missed her and focused on just getting through the next hour. two days without sleep is brutal, and i really hope you're talking to someone you trust about this because you shouldn't have to carry all of it alone.
I’m doing it also I can’t ask myself why it makes no sense. maybe my brain still can’t cope with the fact that they are this cruel and can just go on ignoring I even exist.
i went through an abusive relationship too and i remember lying awake having whole conversations with him in my head because my brain was still trying to get the apology and fairness i never got. i was exhausted and still couldn't stop.
yes exactly and I know they treated me so badly and my mind is how could they do that?
ugh I’m sorry everything is feeling so heavy. I think most people have conversations in their head after something difficult, as a way to imagine a different outcome or to try to get answers you never received. I promise you will get through this, even if it doesn’t seem like it right now.
it’s just taking so long and I can’t see any progress. I feel so broken. I know it has to get better.