Why do i still think of him?

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yesterday a thing happend to me..a guy on an online platform tried to harass me like in a sexual way...that was so bad I got caught up in this I got a little nervous and instantly thought of him for protection...although I didn't break no contact and talked to the admins of that group instead...My brain still searched him for safety..I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing..

I still cry when I talk about things..so I have decided I will not talk about stuff with my friends again..I'll not ask for him or search for him and if I get anxious I'll deal with it myself..I mean I have to right..there's no other way...

I feel sad ofc not always but yeah sometimes I do..maybe I need a routine..yeah I do..I'll try to make one and follow it now my periods are over and moreover I wonder if he's ever gonna come back...although I shouldn't think that way because he clearly said he doesn't want to be with me..I feel so sad like in the end I got nothing...instead of pain..I wonder if it will get better someday..

writing here helps a little from all the things...Wishing you all support :)

Last updated on:2026-09-12T07:03:54+05:30

Comments (21)

Unhealed
Unhealed 2 mths ago

When someone breaks up with me, I tell myself that it was God's way of telling me that person wasn't right for me. After my last breakup, I was diagnosed with severe anxiety. I started taking meds and my life is so much better now. You will get through this. Focus on yourself and doing things that make you happy. Don't cry over someone who is not crying over you. ❤️‍🩹

cookie
cookie 2 mths ago

Thank you ❤️

NeonCrest828
NeonCrest828 2 mths ago

That is the saddest thing ever. He was always my protector in any situation. Now I have to do things by myself. I feel like a kid again in a big scary world without him.

cookie
cookie 2 mths ago

yeah same..it's just sad..

Unhealed
Unhealed 2 mths ago

Don't think of it as a big, scary world. Think of it as a new adventure!

BrightPath116
BrightPath116 2 mths ago

on and off for 3-4 years, broke no contact each time during these period. stupidest mistake each time breaking no contact but I kept doing it. currently on day 48, and still tempted and I think bout the intimacy with him all the time esp when I’m alone. but with the app, it’s easier to countdown, and I’m determined to let this run forever. day infinity and beyond!!

cookie
cookie 2 mths ago

yes let's do it!

WooGlee936
WooGlee936 2 mths ago

same I’ve only been in no contact for 7 days all I think of is him the intimacy . I’m so tempted to send a msg. I’m hoping I can go to 30 days with no contact

BrightPath116
BrightPath116 2 mths ago

@cookie yesss!! we got this!!

BrightPath116
BrightPath116 2 mths ago

@WooGlee936 when u’re tempted to break no contact, look up this app, it really helps. you got this!!!!!

Unhealed
Unhealed 2 mths ago

I am on day 405. You can do this!

NeonCrest828
NeonCrest828 a mth ago

@Unhealed that's over a year. How do you feel

BrightPath116
BrightPath116 a mth ago

@Unhealed wow that’s my goal! yeahhh how do u feel? I am curious too.

Unhealed
Unhealed 1 wk ago

@NeonCrest828 finally happy again!

Unhealed
Unhealed 1 wk ago

@BrightPath116 I got my happy back! No contact is absolutely the way to go. You can't heal if you keep getting sucked back in.

beingMorta
beingMorta 2 mths ago

i’m glad you didn’t break no contact and found another way to feel safe. i’ve learned that needing comfort doesn’t mean you have to go back to the person who hurt you.

cookie
cookie 2 mths ago

thank you I'll remember this

MinuteLog
MinuteLog 2 mths ago

after my breakup i had a scary moment and my first instinct was still to reach for him, even after everything. my brain knew better, my heart didn’t catch up yet

cookie
cookie 2 mths ago

so I guess it's totally normal...

santaams
santaams 2 mths ago

when you thought of him for protection, was it more because you missed him or because he used to make you feel safe during scary moments?

cookie
cookie 2 mths ago

he used to make me feel safe
now I think he is going to forget about me