hello! it is officially day 70 of no contact just one more month until 100 days so very close!.
I have less than a month until I move in for college. I have been thinking about him a lot but packing, studying, dorm decorating and spending time with friends have definitely helped it hurt less. I have good days and bad days but overall so happy with my progress.
One thing though that seems to be pulling me is his ex friend. I believe i put this in a previous post but after we broke up me and his ex friend started talking and we formed a relationship it ended in may when I contacted my ex again. It hurt him which was understandable but my friends and family reassure me that he would have found some way to be angry with me regardless and that I was the one that begged and tried for the relationship so what I did after the breakup didnt matter. but I still feel like it was something I did out of intense feelings his ex friend is nice but I dont want to delay my healing process I want to see how I would be without anyone focusing on myself and my goals what I can accomplish in the next 3 to 5 months. but everytime I let him know hey I should focus on myself he begs me not to leave. I dont want to block because I know what it feels like but I feel in these past 6 months ive been focusing on drama involving him. School is getting closer and he tells me he wants to take me out shopping and go on dates but im not sure if im ready for that. Wounds are still fresh and my ex told me bad stuff that he said about me and his ex friend is telling me bad stuff my ex said to me and then this other girl I havent talked to in a while has said that my ex forced her into doing something while we were still talking but my ex insisted that she forced him into doing it. so I think now I dont care what happened anymore I know ill never know the full story.
I had a good talk with my mom and she told me that i have too much going for myself to be involved with people from high school that ain't doing anything with their lives which made me feel better but I feel like a people's pleaser and dont want to hurt his feelings by not talking to him.
Last updated on:2026-07-30T17:51:12+05:30
Comments (4)
honestly i think your mom has a point. if every conversation with him pulls you back into high school drama, i'd step away. i had to accept that being kind didn't mean i had to keep saying yes to people who kept me stuck.
i really felt the people pleaser part. can i ask, if you took his feelings completely out of it for one minute, what would YOU actually want to do before college starts?
day 70 is HUGE, and i remember getting to that point where life finally started feeling bigger than the breakup. when i chose myself instead of another relationship, i finally figured out who i was again
P.S when i say hurt him I mean it hurt my ex