it has been a week of nc ngl i had the urge to text him yesterday .. just to know if hes doing okay but i didint .. i am working on myself now.. i just feel like the urge to text him doesnt really go away .. everyday its harder and harder to not text him even when he said so many awful things to me I still miss him.. but i dont think i miss HIM i miss the feeling that he gave me , the i love you more and the photos he was sending me through the day .. i miss being loved by someone who cares.. so that is my why to not text him even though i want to.. fuc* him and his manipulation .. i miss the best version of myself .. not him 🫶🏻
Last updated on:2026-08-04T14:43:12+05:30
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every time i wanted to text, i was really craving the comfort, not the disrespect. i kept choosing myself anyway, even when it sucked, and eventually that urge stopped running my whole day.
getting to that first week of no contact and realizing i wasn't missing the person who hurt me, i was missing the version of us that only existed in my head. that was SUCH a hard thing to admit.
glad you caught the difference between missing him and missing how you felt when things were good. i'm curious, if he texted you today acting exactly like he did before, would you actually want him back or would you just want that feeling again
the feeling when we were together was great but the emptiness and loneliness after him is not great so i woulndt want him or the feeling back