when my relationship ended, i was on vacation in my home country. i still am. in about a week, ill be back to the country where he is in and where my job is located. im feeling nervous about being back to where everything started. i experienced so many things with him in that country. so many first times.
i have practically no one in that country. its gonna be very lonely. and ill have to go back to work. i feel like its gonna be a problem because these days ive been numbing myself, doing nothing, mostly just chilling and sleeping.
Last updated on:2026-09-11T23:01:49+05:30
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are you more scared of seeing all the places and memories again, or of coming home after work to that empty feeling?
scared of both but more of the latter
when i was in that numb, sleep-all-day phase, i was scared i’d never get myself moving again, but going back to a routine slowly gave my days some shape. i didn’t feel ready for it, i just took each day as it came.
im not sure if it would be the case for me because id be 11000 kilometers away from my home and support system. hope you are doing and feeling better now 🫶
going back to a place that holds every little memory can feel like walking straight into the breakup again. i remember having to return to my normal life while my head was still stuck in the life i had with my ex, and honestly, the loneliness hit harder than the actual work did.
hope you are doing and feeling better as time goes by 🫶