nighttime is always the hardest for me. ive always been alone during my panic attacks. i just wanted them to stop. i wanted to disappear. one minute feels like eternity. i wish my ex could feel what i felt during those moments of abandonment terror.
he would leave me and go to sleep with his phone turned off or put on silent. during the rare times he picked up, he would scream at me and blame me for behaving this way. as if i had a choice. who would wanna be in my situation just for attention seeking?
Last updated on:2026-09-13T04:24:12+05:30
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are you safe tonight, and is there someone you can call or be with if those feelings come back?
i used to blame myself for needing reassurance too, especially when someone made me feel like my panic was an inconvenience
thats one of the worst feelings ever 😔 i hope we can find someone who will stay by our side during panic attacks and make us feel loved 🫶
I've been having that lately! It's been so hard! I've only been having 2hrs in the night, because I can't sleep from all the thoughts and panic attacks. I've tried to reach out to someone that I can talk to on the phone, so it kinda distracts me, or I try watching something.
i know that nighttime panic, when everything gets quiet and your mind gets SO loud. i’ve had nights where i felt completely abandoned and just wished someone would stay on the other end of the phone, so reading this really hurt.
i hope we can get better for ourselves and find someone who doesnt abandon us and gives us reassurance when we need it 🫶