Why do i miss his smile even after leaving?

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he was toxic for me ,so I had to walk away from the relationship after trying and forgiving for 2 years, but he clearly loved me ,and I miss his room, his smile and all the good moments we share. How am I supposed to move on? I still love him but I know that going back is not an option, because it would only hurt me

Last updated on:2026-09-15T22:52:12+05:30

Comments (8)

Ad9059
Ad9059 5 days ago

i had to stop arguing with myself about loving him before i could move forward. i let myself miss the good parts without using those memories as a reason to go back, because the whole relationship mattered, including the parts that hurt me.

Broseph6
Broseph6 5 days ago

i keep wondering about the moments you miss most, are they really about him as he was, or are you missing the version of the relationship you kept hoping he would become?

kirby32
kirby32 5 days ago

I could tell his affection was genuine, but most of the time he ended up being controlling. So yeah I do miss the actual good memories we had together but I partially wish he could have changed❤️

Grapefruit1
Grapefruit1 6 days ago

missing the little things like his smile, his room, the stupid familiar details that made a place feel like home. i knew my ex was bad for me too, and somehow i could miss him terribly while still knowing i had to leave.

HealingMe26
HealingMe26 6 days ago

I'm sorry you went through that. I only hope and pray mine knows me well enough to know that I love him so much and I will change.

Gracia
Gracia 6 days ago

One day, you’ll miss the memories without missing the person. Give yourself time.

HealingMe26
HealingMe26 6 days ago

I think the way you're feeling is how my partner is feeling. I've had childhood trauma all my life that I never addressed so I am now working on myself and getting. I do still hope he comes back, because I promise I won't hurt him.
Why do you think you'll just get hurt again?

kirby32
kirby32 6 days ago

because he was possessive and never really changed his way of acting even if he tried to, he was never happy for me and saw everything outside of him as a treath, so I couldn't live normally without feeling guilty 24/7 even if I didn't to anything wrong. I don't think he'll change in a small amount of time, I know him unfortunately