it was their birthday Friday and I didn’t contact them. it was the hardest thing I’ve done since this all started. I wanted to be there for them but the last time we talked they said they wanted to be done and move on. so I gave them the best thing I could and gave my silence. I wonder if they missed my text or thought I forgot. I wonder if they were relieved. I wish they could know I stayed up the entire day silently wishing them the best. I miss her and I still love her. in my love for her, I gave her the one thing that breaks my heart: my absence. I really hope that one day she could meet the new me. the one that lost 50 lbs, that expanded her life, that chooses herself even when it hurts, that pursued and got her dream job. I’ve done so many amazing and cool things, and I just wish I could share them with the one person I want to share it with.
Last updated on:2026-10-13T20:44:12+05:30
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do you ever catch yourself imagining how she’d react if she knew everything you’ve achieved since the breakup
i kept wanting to show my ex all the ways i was growing, like maybe if they could see the new me, they’d understand what they lost. eventually i had to let myself be proud of those things even when they never saw them.
birthdays are SO hard after a breakup. i remember staring at my phone on my ex’s birthday, wanting to say something so badly, then reminding myself why we weren’t talking anymore. nobody sees the love in the message you choose not to send.
I'm so proud of you for all of the positive changes you've made in your life. I'm still struggling to make it through the day so to hear all the amazing things you do has really inspired me to push myself to do hard things. thank you for sharing your story. I'm so proud of you for not contacting them today and letting them celebrate their birthday. I really think that the new you deserves new love. I'm excited for the next chapter of your life because I know my heart you're going to find someone just as amazing as you to share your life with. I believe in you. congratulations on all your progress.
Those special events are hard. You were incredibly strong not reaching out. Do something kind for yourself
you sound like you have a big heart. be proud of the new you for you. it is going to hurt. i feel your pain. it's ok to miss her and love her but still move on. if she wanted to, it's that simple, she would be there. be the amazing person you are. create your memories for you. you got this.
its his birthday today ,i feel you