The last 3-4 months of mine and my ex-gf's relationship i became friends with this girl then about 2 months before our relationship ended we started becoming best friends at the start of April my ex-gf was then overthinking that i was cheating on her i reassured her as much as I could i then find out near the end of the April that my best friend passed away obviously I was distraught and I have been for just 6 months. Me and my ex broke up in early June and obviously i was/I am pissed at why we broke up (the accusing of cheating one of her friends convinced her of) fast forward to today i login to one of my social media accounts that I hadn't been on in quite a few days and I get a message from my "de*d" best friend on Saturday and at first i thought it was her mother in her account, i open the message and it says "am I a shitty person for faking my de*th?" and reading that just shocked me. However I can't be mad at her.. i don't have that in me i knew deep down she was struggling and im so fucking glad she is okay, however I wish she told me she was just stepping away from social media for a while bc of mental health instead of faking this... deep down I still love her and I still care about her and i still refer to her as my best friend but gosh I was grieving her for 6 MONTHS.
Last updated on:2026-10-28T05:33:22+05:30
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i've lost someone i thought i'd never get to speak to again, and i can't imagine finding out they were alive after carrying that kind of pain for so long. i'm so glad she's alive, but damn, you deserved the truth.
i have thought about faking my death because i desperately wanted the attention from doing so and felt like seeing everyone hurt over me and my death would make me feel better, and feel loved in some sick way.
it’s also something i wished i could do so i could move away and start a new life where no one knows me bc im fucking crazy and feel like everyone hates me and they’d be better off if i was truly dead.
and also i think faking my death might heal some of the sick fascination i have with committing suicide because i constantly daydream about committing suicide. like i’m talking i am deeply invested in these daydreams and talk about it so much it’s one of the things that pushed away my bf bc he felt like i was too morbid and it “scared him too much”
oh god, you spent SIX MONTHS grieving someone you thought was gone, while dealing with the breakup and all those cheating accusations too
i think you can love her and still feel hurt by what she did.
good one
you read that message and realized she was alive, did you feel mostly relieved at first, or did all those months of grief hit you all over again?
all those months of grief hit me at once
damn that’s crazy
damn that’s crazy