I think what I wanted the most

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I think what I wanted the most, what affects me so much after the breakup is the fact that this is my first time causing the issue. Being the main factor of the problem. I had no bad intentions yet I still messed it up. I struggled with victimizing myself sometimes because I really believed I had good intentions and I never noticed my own flaws. I’be been learning through my last few relationships that I make mistakes and my actions have consequences. Despite all that, what I wanted the most from my most recent breakup was forgiveness. I can’t demand or expect it, but I wanted it, in the most innocent way, like a child breaking a vase and looking to their parents with teary eyes. that kind of how I feel. with no contact going on, and learning to accept there’s no chance in getting back together, due to me and my faults. I don’t know what to do or where to go for forgiveness. I tried turning to the Lord, but I feel it’s something I need to do for myself or something.. it’s hard to explain. I just wanted to get this off my chest.

Last updated on:2025-07-22T06:10:54+05:30

Comments (8)

DriftFlex28
DriftFlex28 10 mths ago

the best forgiveness you can give yourself is the ability to learn and grow.

glogg258
glogg258 10 mths ago

Yo I feel this. Forgiveness is tough but it starts with accepting your flaws and giving yourself grace.

Zoakoami
Zoakoami 10 mths ago

don’t be too hard on yourself. You’re learning and evolving that’s all anyone can ask for

Milovin
Milovin 10 mths ago

this hit hard. You’re human mistakes happen. The fact that you’re reflecting shows you’re already on the right path

DooDOO
DooDOO 10 mths ago

it’s okay to feel this way. You’re learning and growing that’s what matters. Forgive yourself first the rest will follow

KGrant
KGrant 10 mths ago

this is deep Forgiveness starts with you be kind to yourself and remember growth comes from owning your mistakes

GlitchFlex51
GlitchFlex51 10 mths ago

I have alot of guilt for why my relationship ended also it caused him to fall in love with someone else and I regret alot of my actions and that part is so hard.

Unforgivable
Unforgivable 10 mths ago

at least we don’t have to carry our guilt alone. :)