Tough times never last, only tough people
Today, I miss him. From the moment I woke up. He has been on my mind. I went to therapy yesterday and he was a topic of discussion. I cried, and usually when I cry, the residue seeps into the next day.
And today is that day. He is away, most probably for work. How I know that, don't ask😭😭✋🏾 I know his schedule and habits like I know the palm of my hands.
I am taking him being away, as an opportunity to ground my nervous system, but my nervous system seems to want him to regulate it. But I need to do it on my own. I am trying. 😭
Anyway, let me go to work.
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when you say your nervous system wants him, is it more about comfort or about feeling safe?
A little bit of both. But the safety is temporary because he actually doesn't soothe me. He makes me very anxious
i see you trying, even when it’s messy and loud inside. on days like this, i don’t aim for calm, i just aim for not spiraling.
That's all I wanted today. So true! 😭
your body is against you but you have to ignore him, you have to be busy until finally he won't cross your mind anymore
Wow, it's like you are living inside my body, I am constantly on the go today. And when I do think of him, I open this app.
@Unicorninja dont' hesitate if you want to talk!
you will be fine. that’s your body playing tricks on you, remind it that he is already gone, and where you’re is beautiful.
so beautiful! You are so right!
i wake up already missing them, like my body knew before my brain caught up. therapy day next-day cry hangover is REAL. my nervous system used to want him too, like he was the off switch, and realizing i had to learn that on my own felt unfair as hell
So so so real! it feels unfair but that victim mentality gets you stuck in a loop! I am so glad to see you talking about it in past tense because it gives me hope.