we broke up 21 days ago and it completely blindsided me. one minute things felt normal then her energy shifted and it was just over. i was heartbroken and tried everything to fix it even sending her thoughtful gifts.
a few days ago she reached out and asked me to call her. we finally spoke today she said she liked the gifts and i even saw her wearing the earrings so i know she meant it. but at the same time she told me it was too late to fix things. she also mentioned she has a boyfriend now i don’t even know if that’s true but i tried to stay calm.
after the call i thought that was it she didn’t seem interested in anything i said. but later she texted me again and we ended up seeing each other.
we were supposed to see her favorite artist but got there late and missed it. still i was glad i showed up for her. we ended up bowling and getting ice cream nothing big but it meant a lot to me just being around her again.
she made it clear we were hanging out as friends and i respected that. i held back didn’t act like her boyfriend didn’t cross any lines. but honestly i didn’t want it to end. i didn’t want to go home alone and part of me hoped she’d ask me to stay.
it’s been a rough few weeks and i still haven’t let go of us. at the same time i feel stuck between holding on and knowing i probably need to let go.
i do’t know how to make sense of what she says versus what she does or how to handle this without pushing her away or losing myself in the process.
Last updated on:2026-04-02T19:56:03+05:30
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do you feel like being around her like this is actually helping you heal, or is it keeping you stuck in that hope loop?
ohh that back and forth where she say it’s over but still show up just enough to keep you hooked. i remember clinging to those small moments too, like it meant we still had a chance. that push and pull messed with my head so bad.