Why did he have to cheat on me after everything?

when i first met him in basic training in 2024 we sat next to each other on the bleachers. he was quiet but we played eye spy on his little notepad. that’s how it started.
we got closer after that. he became my “battle boo” after he slipped me a note and told me to wait before opening it. i remember trying to peek in the dark then finally reading it in the light. he promised he’d treat me better than my past. i remember our first kiss in the back of a classroom holding him after graduation the first time i told him i loved him.
that christmas i spent time with his family in arizona then we visited mine in california. it felt good like things were real. the last night i got drunk before heading back to georgia to finish training.
not long after i found out i was pregnant. i wanted to tell him in person surprise him. but on march 7th while boarding a flight home to california i lost our baby. it broke me. i kept it to myself because i didn’t want to hurt him but really i was just scared and shattered.
we had our ups and downs after that but we still loved each other. then in august when i deployed everything changed. he cheated on me before i even left and i didn’t know. from august to october he was talking to another girl. when i found out it crushed me. i still gave him another chance because i loved him that much.
but it was never the same. i was anxious all the time constantly checking scared he’d do it again. when he went back home to arizona for two weeks i tried to trust him. i thought maybe we were getting better.
we even started planning for when i got back. he’d pick me up we’d go on dates travel finally have time together. i asked him to post me on facebook since he already had me on instagram. when he did he suddenly lost a few friends which felt off. the next day a girl messaged me saying they had sex in the back of her car while he was in arizona.
that broke me completely. everything fell apart. i finally told him about the baby and he was angry i kept it from him. everything just spiraled from there.
we had all these plans for when i came home next month. i was going to see him in kansas then go to arizona together. now it’s gone.
today he told me he couldn’t do this anymore and blocked me everywhere. i’m shaking i can’t stop crying. i keep thinking about my baby and him at the same time. it feels like i’m losing both all over again.
people keep telling me losing the baby was a “blessing” and that hurts even more. it wasn’t a blessing. it was my baby. and i’m heartbroken in a way that physically hurts.

Last updated on:2026-05-01T11:51:03+05:30