on Sunday I saw a post of my ex with the kids on a running race where we always went as a family to. it broke me to see them and my ex so happy like I never existed.
it made me go into a spiral I couldn’t breathe my heart was literally in so much pain. that night I contacted them and told everything I felt and that my life was so broken and I couldn’t deal with anything.
I was faced with so much cruelty on their end. and that of course I was to blame I blocked them why would they contact me to be there.
I wasn’t doing great but I had no contact for 13 days. I wasn’t healing per se since I was crying again because to me this is life ending I can’t move on and I am so broken.
we spoke yesterday all day they even came to see me and again utter cruelty and our long relationship was nothing and I should just get over it. and I chose to be like this and ruined everything.
yesterday night I sent a message as they were so hurt let’s say by the no contact and they didn’t miss me because hey I blocked them what’s there to miss. to state since we have business together that I would leave their number unblocked so they could reach out for business stuff and maybe kids since I need them too.
only to be told you can’t contact me when you want you can’t bother me.
and up until the end what they always said was you can call me anytime day or night.
but now I can’t.
I feel so broken why did I ever do this to receive so much more pain.
even if I died they said I don’t want the responsibility of that they wouldn’t even care.
i can’t exist in a world where I meant so little at the end. this hurts so so much.
Last updated on:2026-07-14T18:16:57+05:30
Comments (3)
it might be a good idea. speak to your normal doctor, they will be able to help.
do you have someone close or a therapist you could talk to?
no and that is also a very big problem.