I know he wont reach out I know he wont respond if I break no contact I know its not good for me mentally but my heart wants too soo bad this feeling is terrible I hate this part of the journey soo soo much I wont allow myself to but just the urge to want to do it expecting a different outcome when I know im just gonna end up disappointed is brutal so I came on here instead im so glad I found this app I always feel like I bother my friends when I bring it up for the 20th time and I know people here will help ground me no matter how many times I post im ready for this part of the journey to be over but I know I cant rush it I just have to get through it plus side is I haven't cried today I dont think ...
Last updated on:2026-07-19T21:14:01+05:30
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what usually sets the urge off the most, is it certain times of day or does it just hit out of nowhere?
I think its when I am sitting around not doing anything I still have unprocessed thing I need to work through so im recording my self and just talking about whatever is on my mind until I feel lighter so that has helped
when i got those waves, i promised myself i'd wait until tomorrow, and most of the time the urge got a little quieter. also, no crying today? i'd take that as a small win.
I thought it was everyday I am noticing small wins like I woke up today not thinking about him a bit of mixed emotions but they seem quieter today i have a plan of attack for today i feel motivated and ready to build a better future for the one I love which of course will be myself this time around 🥰
it is really annoying especially on my cycle it just intensifies it soo much and I feel so dumb for feeling like this 😞
dont feel dumb. we all feel it at some time or another.
ugh it was so hard in the beginning to not reach out, and triggers past the beginning stages can still unexpectedly bring that feeling back. time does make it better/more tolerable, but the process to get there is ROUGH. glad you are reaching out here - there are a lot of us going through similar journeys and I think that can be helpful
Post on here as much as you need. I cry unexpectedly over weird things. I cant wait until a day passes that I dont cry. I booked in for yoga tonight ive been putting it off for months. im looking forward to it
thanks it does help i did cry after this post but you know what that is a part of the journey and that is amazing 👏🏽 im so happy for you I hope it is everything you need.
@cheekz i really like your outlook. Im starting to feel a weird gratitude for my ex breaking up with me. There are things im healing that I wouldnt be otherwise. Its weird.
@FrostJet725 you know what now that you said that I do have to agree with you this break up has brutal but it has also shown me all the things I want to heal from instead of burying them im ready to become the person I want to fall in love with you know?
@cheekz yes I exactly know... it still doesn't stop that urge to reach out. It comes up through my system like im about to vomit. Im going through it right now. I wish it would go away, because it takes so much energy not to act on it.
Well on my way to Yoga. im so inflexible these days. its going to be a struggle.. lol